Facing myself

List up for things that make me happy.

선키 2024. 5. 12. 14:43




The things that make me happy

  1. Sleeping (honestly not just sleeping but just relex thinking nothing during sleeping)
  2. Getting enough sunshine. Sometimes even watching the full of sunshine through the window feels really happy.
  3. Teaching something (probably this is somehow able to do when I really have a good experience and good skills of something whatever it is.)
  4. Talking something with someone (that is somehow similar as teaching.) having good relationships with others.
  5. Learning something. (That is why I always want to get a job that improves me a lot. like nursing. I really enjoy to see developing myself.) 
  6. looking back I really enjoy the time that I can fully focus on myself, facing for myself, talking to myself. Reading is the way i can talking to myself. I don't write often, but given this context, I feel like I should!
  7. Be physically active enough.
  8. Listening calm and sometimes active music.

 
The things that make me sad

  1. Getting complaints from the patients (I can placate them sometims enough, but it is challenging when patients incessantly questions everything.)
  2. The burden of handing emergency situations as a nurse. (CPR, Managing side effects in cancer patients, the gulity of feeling like I should have done better after the shift) I can not imagine being a happy as a nurse anymore. 
  3. Emphasize so deeply with patients that I often find myself overly identifying with them. 
  4. Overworking 70-80 hours a week. No time to read books, self-meditation, etc..
  5. Fear of not being able to do things that are socially expected of me by my age. (like around 30s, it needs to get merried, before 35 having a baby.

 
The things that make me procrastinate

  1. Shopping
  2. Study only for the test and results

Nurse practitioner, Phychiatric Nurse (I don't think that makes sence since I don't have any experience of that), Oncology nurse.
Critical thinking is necessary b/c It seems like everyone go to work abroad and i am just following which attitude is I constantly have to be wary of.